The Role of a Lifetime

As I sit here reading my bible, trying to understand what the Lord has in store for me I find myself looking into my life and wondering where it is headed. I often wonder why things are not the way I want them to be or why I can't get what I want. It has taken me soo long to figure out that God has planned out everything in my life and I am just living it out. It's wierd because I watched the movie Eagle Eye and I have to say that the writer is either A. very much against the government or B. very religious. The way I see it the main characters were doing what we do are supposed to do in everyday life. Though the voice was not that of God's, essentially we are supposed to consult with him and follow his orders every step of the way no matter what. Now our consequences are not as dire as those in the film but we do bump our heads and fall a lot more than we are supposed to when we don't let God work in our lives. I have started on a path of understanding and trust that the Lord will build me up to be who He wants me to be. I am no where near perfect, but I am working towards finding inner peace and trusting only in what He wants me to do. I guess I have never really been built for patience or waiting on anything. I have always been forced to take care of things on my own. This could quite possibly be because I have never really had many people to depend on and even now the people that I try to depend on always seem to let me down in some way. So I am trying new things, leaning on God and myself for the moment until someone proves to me that he/she can be as reliable as Him.

I have been holding on these past couple of months waiting on people to make decisions for me. Getting upset when I don't get my way and when people make choices without trying to understand where I fall in the picture. That was my mistake. Waiting on people to answer questons for me that I should have known the answers to. My life could have been a lot easier if I had just left it up to Him. Well we all live and learn don't we? I have found that in meeting new people, and opening up new friendships that sometimes it is OK just to start over. I am there, at the beginning, the starting line, right before the credits are rolled. I am remaking my movie called life and its costars and technical crew will be replaced. The Lord is my writer, director, producer, cast director, all of the above. He will guide me in choosing my cast of friends, my scenes..where I work,play, and worship. And of course He will bring me the other leading part because, yes ladies and gentleman this is also a love story. When He does we will share such chemistry that new categories will have to made so that we can win the Oscars for best...us. Watch the headlines, the previews and the promos because this film starring me..will bring happiness to your heart, tears to your eyes...and most of all....Peace to your soul. And of course mine.

Peace...Reese